According to Imam Ahmad, Allah has mentioned the word 'patience' for 90 times in various surah in the Al-Quran. That is enough to show us how important for us Muslims to have some patience in order to succeed and to do great things. And Allah has promised great rewards to those whom are patient with what he/she is tested with.
Patience is actually subjective. You might thought that you are a very compose, understanding and diligent kind of person but others might view it differently. To some people you might be the most impatient person they've ever met, and vice versa. When it comes to subjective things like this, it is important to listen to other people what they actually thought about you but most of the time, I always consider my own opinion as a priority. For that reason, when it comes to patience or self restraint, I do not see myself as an A student or an example to others.
If you ask me one thing about myself that I wish I can change, my answer would definitely be my level of patience and tolerance. I wish I am more patient or sabar. I know that I am not patient enough in certain things. I always told myself 'Liyana, have patience pleaseee' or 'sabar sikit', but there are times where I cannot control myself from being angry. I think that is somehow link with my personality. I am at times fairly impatient. When it comes to studying I'm often getting stress for not understanding the concept. Plus, I am quite ambitious and a little perfectionist so in some important things, it gets even worse. If I have something that I really want, I tend to push myself until I get it. So, if I am really into something but the end result was not as good as how I expected it to be, I tend to get frustrated and disappointed with myself.
I'm sure some of you guys might relate with this.
I can say that I adapt quite well in terms of the process but if the result is not how I want it to be, then I lose my endurance. Some might think it's good to be persistent in what you actually want in life but deep inside I wish I am more patient and resolute so that even if I didn't achieve what I really want, I will not give up and start things all over again. Looking back, there are certain things and events that makes me regret for being so impatient. I mean things might be better if only I manage to control and restraint myself. Okay not much of a regret actually, because no matter what happened, we can't change the past right? So yeah it's more like a lesson learnt. If something happened because of my lack of tolerance, endurance or anything then I should make sure that it won't happen again.
I'm not particularly proud with the fact but I think that this is something that I need to work on and I'm sure some of you people out there might be dealing with the same issue. Let's keep calm and be cool!
Through patience, great things are accomplished- Imam Ali (AS)