Dedicated to everyone who wonders if I'm writing about them. I do.

Thursday, 30 March 2017

Rise & Slay

Today marks the day I return home to myself.

If I've learned anything in life, that should be to know your worth. Girl, you need to know that you're already perfect, you're doing fine and you worth more than a hopeless guy.  I think I should ask myself why the heck am I spending my time worrying and caring for a man who made it obvious with his actions that he didn't want me? Why I kept trying to make this work while on the other hand, he's not making any effort for me? Why am I trying to make things work when it's pretty obvious that I can't see any future of us together? Why am I making excuses for him; oh maybe he's busy, maybe he's spending time with his family. Why does it took me so long to realize that I deserve someone better? I always say this but here it goes again; someone's effort is a reflection of their interest in you and yes for that reason I know the answer to this. I should stop.

My heart told me to stop wasting my time and I kinda agree with that. Never make someone your priority if you remain their option. I realize that I have to keep moving, or else I might miss the train to bigger things in life than this. Again, why bother wasting your time at the first place? Girl, you deserve better.

"You were enough. Maybe you were too much, maybe he prefers less and you deserve more".

Sunday, 26 March 2017


Generally if I have to be honest, yes it's nice to be told you're pretty, beautiful or whatever, but I'd like to hear other things as well, that I have a good personality, they're happy with my existence, my personality suit theirs, they love the fact of me being myself, they find my presence and abilities make things easier/bearable or anything, just other things outside the skeptical cliche things people usually point out. Of course I'm thankful with all the compliments I'd received so far including the one regarding how I look but you know sometimes you just want to hear honest opinions on matters other than your appearance. Compliments may not always be about appearance right?

Disclaimer: I'm not saying I'm pretty whatsoever, I know I can never fit that 'beautiful' category anyway tapi lantak lah, I just feel like writing about this because these days I hear some many people complimenting about looks. It seems like to some people, appearance is the only way to compliment others?

'Look at her, she's so full of herself, I bet people were joking when they complimented her hahaha'- save that hate for tomorrow please, love ya.